When I first started my career I was kind of lost, not knowing what direction to go. I knew I liked taking photos more than anything -we all have that "annoying" friend that is constantly taking pictures of anything and everyone. Well, I was one of them - Different thoughts ran through my mind and would literally keep me up at night. Will I become a wedding photographer? A family portrait photographer? A fashion photographer? A sport photographer? I had no clue. I felt the need to stick to one and go for it. Yeah. the need! So I sticked to portraits. I am very family oriented and the opportunity to create moments, freeze them in pictures and make people feel the emotions even years later was my idea of a perfect career.
After I made up my mind and sticked to what I wanted and felt comfortable doing, I was contacted by a client who wanted me to photograph her birthday party. My first thought was.... NO. That's not my style and I can't do it. Seriously. Not positivity in sight here. The truth is, I was afraid of failing. Hello FEAR! In a portrait session I was comfortable. I had the hability to create whatever I wanted, control light the way I wanted. So my fear of failing and having to handle a disc of dull images was one of the scarier thoughts that crossed my mind. You might think that's insane but I had the idea of me, annoying the guests with my flash and having to ask them to smile and say cheese the entire time.
And then something clicked. I didn't have to define myself as a portrait photographer at all. I googled "photojournalist and life style photography". And that was it. In sum, I learned I could find those emotions in any situation and that if I was able to capture this, that actually meant was doing something right. I decided I would chin up and provide this client with images that she would look back and feel warmth in her heart, that maybe he or she wouldn't even realize I was there the entire time and most of all, I would do my best to capture emotions, personalities, moments, just like I did with portraits...
After a few emails back and forth I was able to put my thoughts together, concentrate to what really matters (emotions, moments) and how I could use what I did to provide someone with nice images of such a special moment. From the moment I started focusing on the good and positive aspects, I completely erased the insecurity I was feeling.
Up to this day, when I find myself believing that I can't do something, I may have a moment (like a freaking out sort of moment? ) but then I think about my first wedding or that client who asked me to shoot her birthday party. A birthday party. To me it was as important as any other job. I don't laugh but I smile at the thought of it. And see how much I've changed thanks to this career. And feel blessed because they trusted me to register one of the most important days of their lives. And for that I am forever thankful :) Living FEARLESS is a blessing and I believe we can all achieve this if we truly want.
After that first birthday party, many others came and I'm happy to share the images here:
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